Dear Boss,

Well, I quit. I've finally run out of drive or devotion or rationalization or whatever it was that kept me in the Air Force this long. I used to believe in, "Why not the best," but I can't keep the faith any longer. I used to fervently maintain that this was "My Air Force," as much or more than any senior officer's - but I can't believe any more; the light at the end of my tunnel went out.

Why, you ask? Why leave flying fighters and a promising career? Funny you should ask...mainly I'm resigning because I'm tired. Ten years and 2000 hours in a great fighter, and all the time I've been doing more with less - and I'm tired of it. CBPO doesn't do more with less; they cut hours. I can't even trust CBPO to have my records accurately transcribed to MPC . I have to go to Randolph to make sure my records aren't botched.

Finance doesn't do more with less; they close at 1500. The hospital doesn't do more with less; they cut hours, cut services and are rude to my dependents to boot. Maintenance doesn't do more with less; they can't or won't fix the jets on time. Everybody but the fighter pilot has figured out the fundamental fact that you can't do more with less -you do less. And everybody but the fighter pilot gets away with it -when's the last time the head of CBPO was fired because a man's records were a complete disaster? And on the other side, when was the last time anyone in the fighter game told higher headquarters, "We can't hack 32 DOC 's because we can't generate the sorties?"

Anyway, I thought I could do it just like all the rest thought they could and we did for awhile - but now it's too much less, to do too much more - and a lot of us are tired ..... and it's not the job. I've been TDY to every dirty little outpost on democracy's frontier that had a 6000 foot strip. I've been gone longer than most young jocks have been in - and I don't mind the duty or the hours... that's what I signed up for. I've watched my buddies roll up in fireballs -I understand - it comes with the territory. I can do it. I did it. I can still do it - but I won't.

I'm too tired, not of the job, just the Air Force. Tired of the extremely poor leadership and motivational ability of our senior officers and commanders. (All those Masters Degrees and PME 'and not a leadership trait in sight!) Once you get past your squadron CO , people can't even pronounce espirit de corps. (Even a few squadron CO's stumble over it.) And let me clue you - in the fighter business when you're out of espirit, you're out of corps - to the tune of 22,000 pilots in the next five years, if you follow the airline projections. And why?

Why not? Why hang around in an organization that rewards excellence with no punishment. Ten years in the Air Force and I've never had a DO or Wing Commander ask me what our combat capability is, or how our exposure times are running during pops , or what our air to air loss and exchange ratios are. No, instead we get a lot of interest in boots, haircuts, scarves, and sleeves rolled down, but zero questions about my job (well, maybe a query or two on taxi spacing), not even a passing pat on the ass semiannually. If they're not interested, why should I be so fanatical about it? It ought to be obvious I'm not in it for the money. I used to believe...and now they won't even let me do that.

And what about career? Get serious! A string of nine-fours and ones as long as your arm and nobody can guarantee anything. No matter that you are the Air Force expert in subject Y - if the computer spits up your name for slot C - you're gone. One man gets 37 days to report remote ...really now, did someone slit his wrists or are we that poor at managing? Another gets a face-to-face, no-change-for-six-months brief from MPC ...two weeks later? You got it - orders in his inbasket. I'm ripe to PCS ...MPC can't hint where or when, I've been in too long to take the luck of the draw. I've worked hard, I've established myself, I can do the job better than anyone else - does that make a difference? Can I count on progression? No. At 12-15 hours a day on my salary at my age, I don't need that insecurity and aggravation.

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And then the big picture - the real reasons we're all pulling the handle. It's the organization itself. A non-competitive training system that allows people in fighters that lack the aptitude or the ability to do the job. Once they're in you can't get them out - not in Lead In Training, not in RTU and certainly not in an operational squadron. (We have a fighter pilot short fall - didn't you hear?) So now we have lower quality people with motivation problems and the Commander won't allow anyone to jettison them.

If you haven't noticed, that leaves us with a lot of people in fighters, but very few fighter pilots - and the ranks of both are thinning; the professionals are dissatisfied and most of the masses weren't that motivated to begin with. MPC helps out by moving Lieutenants every 12-15 months or so - that way nobody can get any concentrated training on them before they pull the plug. Result: operational squadrons aren't worth a damn. Anybody care? Certainly not the whiz kid commander who blew in from 6 years in staff , picked up 100 hours in the bird and was last seen checking the grass in the sidewalk cracks. He told his boys, "Don't talk to me about tactics - my only concern is not losing an aircraft .... and meanwhile, get the grass out of the sidewalk cracks!"

And the clincher - integrity. Hide as much as you can ..... particularly from the higher headquarters that could help you if only they knew. They never will though - their staff will see to that! Instead they say, "Don't say that to the general" or "The general doesn't like to hear that." I didn't know he was paid to like things - I thought he was paid to run things ..... how can he when he never hears the problems?

Ahh...we'll put it off until it becomes a crisis - maybe it will be overcome by events. Maybe if we ignore it, it won't be a problem. (Shh, don't rock the boat.) Meanwhile, lie about the takeoff times, so it isn't an ops or maintenance late. One more command post call to ask subtlely if I gave the right time because, ahh, that makes him off 2 minutes late," and I will puke!) Lie about your DOC capability because you're afraid to report you don't have the sorties to hack it. "Yes sir, losing two airplanes won't hurt us at all." The partyline.

I listened to a three-star general look a room full of us in the face and say that he "did not realize that pencil whipping records was done in the Air Force." It was embarrassing - that general looked us in the eyes and said, in effect, "Gentlemen, either I'm very stupid or I'm lying to you." I about threw in the towel right there - or the day TAC fixed the experience ratio problem by lowering the number of hours needed to be experienced!

And then the final blow, the Commander of TAC arrives -does he ask why the 414 FWS goes 6 for 1 against F-5s and F-15s when his operational outfits run 1 for 7 on a good day? (Will anybody let us volunteer the information?) Does he express interest in why the Weapons School hasn't lost an airplane in five years? No - he's impressed with shoe shines and scarves and clean ashtrays. (But then we were graciously allotted only minimum time to present anything - an indication of our own Wing's support of the program. Party line, no issues, no controversy - yes, sir; no, sir; three bags full, sir).

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